is your mom the one who taps our back when you have problem or the one who says " don't worry, its gonna be ok"? well if your answer is yes, then your a very lucky person!!. you'll never experience what i am experiencing right now. you want some clue? I'll give you one word."HELL!". honestly, i don't feel like writing but since i am alone and my heart is aching maybe i can release something or Everything.


i really don't get them!!!!. why does every time i failed into something, they just can't comfort me???. is it really that hard to hug your own daughter?? or even just say something encouraging like "it's gonna be ok honey, mommy will always be right here for you". like heler! do you have a heart??. coz i feel like you don't have one. i thank you for everything that you have given to me. all the money, wealth and luxurious things. if you just gave that to me because you feel like it's your responsibility and not because you want me to be happy then pls.pls.pls. "AYAW NLANG !!" So that every time i did something wrong, you will count all those things that you gave. What is really your point??? you want me to feel bad?? like you've given me everything and I'm not worth it?? then I'm sorry to disappoint you. i know that I'm not that good but I'm trying. Don't act like your the victim. I'm the victim!. I'm the one who failed. I am disappointed, I am unhappy, I am angry to myself and I am sorry. I just don't like the way you handle situation. I'm the one who needs to be comforted. I know I owe you a lot but I'm your daughter you know?. They say that there's no other greater love than a mother's love to her daughter. Even how ugly your daughter is, how stupid your daughter is, you still love her right??..I am your daughter. Do you love me??. If you asked me if i love you, of course I love you. Your my mother. Even just this once. Can you just pretend like you care about my feelings. Just for now. I really feel bad and your making me feel worst. sorry but right now i realized I'm not that lucky..

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