is your mom the one who taps our back when you have problem or the one who says " don't worry, its gonna be ok"? well if your answer is yes, then your a very lucky person!!. you'll never experience what i am experiencing right now. you want some clue? I'll give you one word."HELL!". honestly, i don't feel like writing but since i am alone and my heart is aching maybe i can release something or Everything.


i really don't get them!!!!. why does every time i failed into something, they just can't comfort me???. is it really that hard to hug your own daughter?? or even just say something encouraging like "it's gonna be ok honey, mommy will always be right here for you". like heler! do you have a heart??. coz i feel like you don't have one. i thank you for everything that you have given to me. all the money, wealth and luxurious things. if you just gave that to me because you feel like it's your responsibility and not because you want me to be happy then pls.pls.pls. "AYAW NLANG !!" So that every time i did something wrong, you will count all those things that you gave. What is really your point??? you want me to feel bad?? like you've given me everything and I'm not worth it?? then I'm sorry to disappoint you. i know that I'm not that good but I'm trying. Don't act like your the victim. I'm the victim!. I'm the one who failed. I am disappointed, I am unhappy, I am angry to myself and I am sorry. I just don't like the way you handle situation. I'm the one who needs to be comforted. I know I owe you a lot but I'm your daughter you know?. They say that there's no other greater love than a mother's love to her daughter. Even how ugly your daughter is, how stupid your daughter is, you still love her right??..I am your daughter. Do you love me??. If you asked me if i love you, of course I love you. Your my mother. Even just this once. Can you just pretend like you care about my feelings. Just for now. I really feel bad and your making me feel worst. sorry but right now i realized I'm not that lucky..

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3/24/09

Xoxo..

I'm sure all of us are wondering who is gossip girl. She could be anyone; the girl in your class, that boy from the basketball team, that girl in the biology class..Where all just dying to know. Who could this mysterious person who holds all of the Upper East Side’s juiciest secrets possibly be? I really don't have a single piece of idea. Just like you I love gossip girl so much. Right now I'm very excited to know the season finale. First season was absolutely amazing, full of thrill, love, and lust. I'm just so curious on how they will end season 2. To those who can't relate, I'm very sorry but your kinda out of this world. Who doesn't know gossip girl?? helr? even TT's or shall we call them serious teenagers loved very much the famous line from Blair Waldorf "three words, eight letters say it and I'm yours"..OMG!!!.so sweet. OK. Just for you I will give a little overview of this teenage drama series.


Above are some of the main cast.

Full Cast

Blake Lively Serena Van Der Woodsen

Leighton Meester Blair

Connor Paolo Eric

Chace Crawford Nate

Ed Westwick Chuck, Chuck Bass

Penn Badgley Dan

Taylor Momsen Jenny

Kelly Rutherford Lily

Sam Robards Howie

Matthew Settle Rufus

Kristen Bell Gossip Girl

Florencia Lozano Eleanor Waldorf

Nicole Fiscella Isabel Coates

Nan Zhang Kati Farkas

Based on a popular teen book series, "Gossip Girl" is narrated by the unseen title character (Kristen Bell, "Veronica Mars"), who reports on the hook-ups and breakups among her classmates. Headlines on her blog is about the scandalous lives in Manhattan's elite. The story now goes like this. Serena Van Der Woodsen unexpectedly returns to New York from her mysterious absence to a boarding school in Connecticut. She is initially unwelcome by her best friend Blair Waldorf, who was perplexed by the lack of contact during Serena's absence, and has assumed the position as queen bee of the Constants Billard junior class. Later on discovered that her longtime boyfriend Nate Archibald slept with Serena a year before, Blair is now ready to cut her friendship with S,if your B would you cut your friendship w/ your best friend after she hooked up w/ your bf??well if you ask me maybe YES!..hahahha..ok. then Serena meets the outsider Dan Humphrey (leaves in Brooklyn and begins a relationship with him. At the same time Dan's father Rufus and Serena's mother Lily digging their past relationship (ew!). Blair done a lot to make S be humiliated. In the end she finds out that Eric van der Woodsen had attempted suicide and was receiving treatment, Serena and Blair mend their friendship. This is just the start of series of unbreakable events. Next pictures are full of excitement and romance.

Gossip Girl can influence alot of youngsters. Not just the fashion but the manner and style. It's not that nice to watch high school students hooking up with best friend and boyfriend. Pretty classy huh??..Going to clubs every Friday night. And trying to manipulate people with the use of wealth and power. However, the main reason why I love GG is that often times I can relate to them .Because...I'm a teenager!! like S & B. Situations they show are really true and currently possible. right??. Is it possible that your bff will hook up w/ your bf??..hahahhaa.watever!. I'm happy watching the TV series. It offers lessons in friendship, family, and self conflict. Reminds me how to live life to the fullest. Teaching me how to count blessings. It gets better and better every time I watch an episode. .








xoxo...

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3/18/09

heLO, sunshine!

Summer's officially here! We have no classes anymore. We can now hit the beach in fabulously flattering bikinis, comfy shorts, and tops in sunshine-y hues..weeeehh!! It's our time to shine and make this summer 2009 exciting and fun!

Honestly, I don't have plans yet but I'm sure I will going to have lots of activities for the rest of the break. You don't have ideas??Well actually I kinda have plenty of ideas on how you can spend summer.
You can hit the beach with your sizzling suits. Boost you beach-babe status. Who knows you could find a nice guy and will have summer fling. Make sure you have these things stuffed in your bag when you hit the beach: Sun Block, Water (h20), Head Wrap, Flip-Flops and a Camera for moments.....:)It's really exciting. If your not into bikinis and guys, you go for scuba diving. Summer is the perfect time to enjoy nature and explore a whole new world under the sea. This could give you a spectacular view of life under water. Nice right??If you want to develop your endurance, flexibility, and grace, then be a dancing queen!.hehehhe..Dancing is an enjoyable activity. I love dancing. It relaxes your feeling and at the same time develop you endurance. It's one way on releasing your energy and fats.

You can also boost your brainpower by reading books this summer. Smart people say that books are a treasure trove of wisdom. It's true that reading gives you a chance to use your imagination, expand your horizons, and see things is a new lights. Let the beauty of words feed you mind.
Watching movies and series are another exciting way in spending your summer. I have a friend who already listed plenty of movies for her to watch on this summer. It would be more fun if you will watch movie with your barkada. Have pizza and coke in the table. A sleepover would be amazing!
Wanna do something different with your barkaka?? go for Paintball, Air soft, Karting and Sky Experience adventure.. You will need big money for this activities. Live the experience, Love the adventure!
Wanna enhance your hidden skills?? Go for summer class!!. It's a fun way on improving your skills and make new pals.
Not enough money to buy the things you want?,Gain money this summer!. Put your skills into summer jobs like serving at a fast food chain. You can rid your closet of clothes that no longer fit you and sell them at a garage sale or if you have a knack for designing clothes, making jewelry and cooking, try selling your creations online!. Photo sharing sites such as multiply save you the cost and hassle of having to put up your own store, help you keep in touch with your customers and allow you to advertise easily. ryt? This will help you earn enough moolah to buy new must-haves!
Summer Bloogin' is another way in spending your vacation. You can post funny, inspiring, or conversation you had with your barkada. You can also blog about your future goals. It doesn't matter if these are long-term or short-term, impossible to achieve, or just within your reach. What matters is you listed these dreams down in black and white for everyone to read.

That's all for now..

Guys!!!. No matter what you do, the most important thing is you enjoy and don't forget to smile..
Here are my personal things to SMILE about this summer

*Be able to go to the mall with my girl friends on a weekday.
*Having all the time to relax .
*We can update our blogs everyday.
*All new pictures (summer pictures).
*Wake up late.
*No assignments to worry.
*No exams.
*Can have beauty rest.
*Summer lessons/ Summer class.
*Having lots of time in doing things i love.
*The beach.


happy summer!

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3/16/09

MONDAY..STRIKE DAY

It's monday, worst day of the week. Don't wanna get up early but because of our "AMAZING TEACHER",I just won't mention her name but to those who are taking methods laboratory, you know "her", I need to get to school before 10:00am. We have this company study thing. I woke up early but its seems like the world is driving me crazy. My aunts and my father keep on telling me that I shouldn't go to school coz we have a general strike and their's no class. "I really don't have class. I just need to go to school for our company study." I said to them.MANY TIMES.. But they keep on asking me questions like "how will you go to USC(my school)?, will jeff(my boyfriend) be coming with you??, have you called your administrator if you really have class??" my God!. They just didn't stop until I walked out. Anywayzz, I was about to brush my teeth when I turn the faucet, their's no water. gggggrrrrrrrhhhhh!!!..I was really really mad.. I ask our maid to fix it, she just said that my father was the only person who can fix it. To my surprise, when I shouted the name of my father, no one answered. He's gone. gggrrrrrrhhhhhh...I was furious then.. Maybe our maid get rattled,don't know what she've done but the next thing I know the faucet is now ok...hahahhaha...Can't imagine how she fix that..My home is quite far from USC. I need to ride 3 times...harhar. Can you imagine how far my school is from my house???....When wab and I were on our way to mcdonalds( it's where we wait for our first ride to school), alot of people were also waiting. There was no jeepney. If there's one then it's either full or going to the other side of the road. We waited for a few minutes but I can't stop myself from getting pissed off. So, we decided we need to do something. I don't like to be stucked there standing like a fool waiting for nothing, right??..Thank God we did get a ride but it's just the first stop. In Bulacao, much people were standing and waiting. As in like totally. We need to find another ride for our next stop. It seems like it's impossible. They were really dying to get a ride. I couldn't bare to stay with those people. They push, push and push. Our hope in going to school "gone".. We realize my boyfriend's brother could give us a ride. Yes, they have a car. hahahha. And we put it on our last option. They just use it for emergency kasi or for important things only. It's important to go to school. Isn't it??.hehehehe..We just fetch my friend Shalee at southbus terminal. .We got to school safelly. Although were a little bit late but it doesn't matter anymore. We did have our company study somewhere is Mandaque..Im not so sure about the place. We just rent a "multicab". I can say that the place is not that pleasing. I just thought it would be in a building or a place with lots of security guards. It's just not it..It's ok..We have no choice.. We need to go back there this coming wednesday to continue stuffs..In going home, things were ok na.. Taxi is our solution. harharhar..My mom paid. I need to save to buys things I love..You know me..When I got home, I toke some sleep. Beauty rest for tomorrows class..And now..blogging...pretty obvious.. enjoying blogging kasi.. "until hr na guys..gotta go to bed na.."..mwah!!!

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3/15/09

100 truths

001. Real Name: Leslie Conde Zafra
002. Nickname(s): Les, lee,
003. Age: 18
004. Horoscope: Cancer
005. Male or Female: Female
006. Elementary: Sait Theresa
007. Middle School: XD
008. High School: University of San Jose Recoletos
009. College School: University of San Carlos
010. Hair colour: Reddish Brown (love it)
011. Long or Short: Long-ish
012. Loud or Quiet: Loud
013. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans
014. Phone or Camera: Both XD
015. Health Freak: No
016. Drink or Smoke: None
017. Do you have a crush on someone: Nope
018. Eat or Drink: Eat
019. Piercings: Ears (2 pairs)
020. Tattoos: No
021. Social or Anti-Social: Social
022. Righty or lefty: Righty
023. First piercing: months old
024. First relationship: friendship
025. First Best Friend: Chris Espina
026. First Award: Most Cooperative (grade 3)
027. First Kiss: -
028. First Pet: - dog (kimg)
029. First Big Vacation: no big
030. First Love at first sight: -
031. First Big Birthday: 18th b.day
032. First Surgery: -none
033. First sport you joined: Badminton I think

This or That
034. Orange or Apple juice: both
035. Rock or Rap: Both, I guess rock?
036. Country or Screamo: none
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: both
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: Britney spears I guess
039. Night or Day: Both
040. Sun or Moon: sun I guess
041. TV or Internet: Internet
042. Playstation or xbox: Playstation
043. Kiss or hug: Both
044. Iguana or turtle: Turtle
045. Spider or bee: Bee
046. Fall or spring: Spring
047. Limewire or iTunes: i use both
048. Soccer or baseball: soccer

Currently
049. Eating: Nothing
050. Drinking: Nothing
051. Excitement level: Not excited at all XD
052. I'm about to: Carry on going on the internet
053. Listening to: noises
054. Plan for today: Internet XD
055. Waiting for: Nothing
056. Energy Level: Medium
057. Thinking of someone: yes
058. Want kids?: Yes
059. Want to get married?: Yes
060. When?: Mid-20s
061. How many kids do you want: 2 or 3
062. Any name on the mind: Nope
063. What did you want to be when you were little: Just someone rich XD
064. Careers in mind: businesswoman I gues
065. Mellow future or wild: In between
066. Something you would never try: Drugs and smoking
067. When do you want to die: Never! XD I don't really care actually, when it's time lol

Which is the better in the boy/girl you like (in the future)
068. Lips or Eyes: Eyes
069. Romantic or Funny?: Both
070. Shorter or Taller?: Taller!
071. Protective or Caring?: Both
072. Romantic or Spontaneous?: Both
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: Both
074. Sensitive or Loud?: Both
075. Hook-up or Relationship?: Relationship of course
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant?: neither
077. Muscular or normal: Normal
078. Kissed a stranger: don't care
079. Broken a bone: don't care
080. Lost glasses or contacts: I don't see the problem with this
081. Ran away from home: No, well depends why
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: No unless he was about to get killed XD
083. Killed somebody: No way
084. Broken some one's heart: don't care, as long as it's not mine XD
085. Had your heart broken: No, depends...
086. Been arrested: No
087. Cried when someone died: Yes
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: Don't care

Do you believe in
089. Yourself: Yep
090. Miracles: yep
091. Love at first sight: Not really
092. Heaven: yep
093. Santa Claus: no
094. Tooth Fairy: No, I'm not a kid XD
095. Kiss in the first date: Maybe
096. Angels: yep

Answer Truthfully
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now?: yes
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now?: I'm alright now..
099. Do you believe in God?: yes..
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.

1. jef
2. aime
3. jessa
4. jo
5. lyn
6. mikyu
7. shale
8. suyin
9. lor
10. jew

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